grey's anatomy....judy visit

exactly a year ago today i got my first cocktail of poison, better known as chemotherapy....as i have previously said, i dont remember much...just certain details...i remember heather who is a head RN on 5300 (or something like that) administered the first dosage of chemo via my port...i was scared but ready...the next thing i remember was the night nurse coming in to check on me and checking my temp and having a fever as well as my heart rate very elevated...it would not go down and finally they decided to call dr grossman who then wanted to talk to tom...he asked tom how i looked? the funny thing it was surreal for me, everyone was running around and i kept telling everyone i felt fine and i did...but the numbers didnt match.. i cannot emphasize that i felt good...

when i saw dr grossman this past tuesday we chatted on that day and he said he was up all night talking to the staff on 5300 as well as the intensive care unit, which is where i ended up for a few days...praise God i am here to tell my version one year later....God continues to bless me every second of the day....

today, my best friend judy came up to my parents house to have dinner with us and have an early celebration of my birthday as well as reflect on this past year...it is always great spending time with her and having her as a friend...she truly is like a sister...

after judy left i watched a few minutes of grey's anatomy...i cannot describe how emotional those few minutes made me...i caught it in the part where Izzy marries Alex and they get back to her hospital room and when Alex removes her hairclip, attached is a clump of hair...Izzy pulls on her hair noticing it is falling out from the chemotherapy and starts to cry..Alex says to her "its ok you are still beautiful, its only hair, we will shave it off"...wow, when my hair first started falling off those were the exact words tom said to me..i cant help but get choked up thinking about it...tom has been awesome through all of this...i love him so much and to God i am thankful for sending me such a great man/soulmate..with or without hair tom has never stopped telling me how beautiful i was or give me words of encouragement to help me pick myself up and keep going...ok, i need to stop because i am going to start balling...

tonight we are staying at my parents house..tom went out after work for a couple of drinks so it is easier to stay here...tomorrow tj and i will go back home during the day...

its amazing what can happen in a year...God bless...